Daniel P. Barron

Today I was happy but still suicidal. I got enough sleep and ate right. I just hate the fact I am getting older. I don’t want to look old. I want to be young forever. But the fact I can’t stay and look young forever makes me want to die. I’m sorry I know we are supposed stay in the light but even in it exist darkness.

If you kill yourself, you will go to hell.

Then how do I end my suffering? I never asked to get older. I feel like I will die lonely. No friends or girlfriend.

You should be terrified that God will kill you.

I don’t fear death anymore so it’s okay. I’m fine with it. My isolation from people has made me broken. I was a mistake born by accident.

I mean you should be afraid of Him destroying you forever in the lake of fire.

Why is he going to do that to me though? Fine I won’t commit suicide. But just tell me how do I make my life happier?

Forsake it. ⁱ Have God for help. ⁱⁱ Trust in the Lord. ⁱⁱⁱ Fear the commandment. ^iv

1. Luke 14:
   

   26 “If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple.

    ^

2. Psalm 146:
   

   5 Happy is he who has the God of Jacob for his help,
   Whose hope is in the Lord his God,
   6 Who made heaven and earth,
   The sea, and all that is in them;
   Who keeps truth forever,
   7 Who executes justice for the oppressed,
   Who gives food to the hungry.
   The Lord gives freedom to the prisoners.

   8 The Lord opens the eyes of the blind;
   The Lord raises those who are bowed down;
   The Lord loves the righteous.

    ^

3. Proverbs 16:
   

   20 He who heeds the word wisely will find good,
   And whoever trusts in the Lord, happy is he.

    ^

4. Proverbs 13:
   

   13 He who despises the word will be destroyed,
   But he who fears the commandment will be rewarded.

    ^